Brave Side of Wild

The saints here are lightning,

incisive slash across the grey keep,

flash of faith in the face of the tightening noose

wrenched loose and flung away

in the name of the coming New Day.

At every blow there is strong stand-up:

defiance of wrong, long reliance on the little

to whittle down the mountain, to forge

the treacherous pass at last,

and two swords is enough.

For the addict, human touch.

For heavy red earth, rusted

wheelbarrows.  For tumbling plastic

in the street, soil and seed.

For the Asperger child, a seat and a name.

For the rain, fire. For the fire, fuel.  

The pinnacle reached by rule of descent,

leaving skin behind on the barbed wire.

The saints here are lightning

on the brave side of wild,

a net for the discarded to form

a net for the discarded to form

a mosaic of the unheralded,

masterpiece of the absurd

poised aside the crowded roadways,

stretching along the lonely beaches

singing into the gusty wind

a song that cannot but be heard.

Having just returned from an inspiring week in the Dominican Republic learning from church and community leaders, I write this poem as a tribute to these unsung heroes--in particular, Ernesto and Altagracia Bathermy, pastors of Vision Celestial in Los Alcarrizos, and Rafael Hernandez, pastor of Iglesia Communitaria Cristiana in the colonial city of Santo Domingo.

Duke (2003-2018)

His motor was so loud

the vet couldn’t get

a read on his heart

for his annual chart.

I hope you know that

you did this to him.

Your soul affection

drew him like music

to knead on your blanket

and bask in your  Dolittle

kindness.   You were able

without even trying

to ignite in this tabby

the purr of a lion.

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With tears and heavy hearts we had to say goodbye to Duke last week.  He was an incredibly affectionate cat, restless at heart, with a peculiar meow that sounded more human than feline.  Duke originally belonged to Susan's father.  When he passed away, we adopted Duke.  Duke must have had an ability to sense genetic vibes because he developed a very special attachment to Susan.  They were great snuggle-buddies.  This poem is a tribute to Duke, but even more, a tribute to Susan and her sweet love for him.

Photo Credit:  Randi Lynn, (Duke's other favorite family member) took this photo.

The Whole World Hangs a Fragile Spider Web

They found a tumor.  That is all she said.

Once again the tide of ill rolls in

as surely as the light at dusk will end.

The whole world hangs a fragile spider web,

unimaginably thin, impossibly spread

between the weathered post of the leaning fence

and the low-hung maple branch, suspended

vulnerably in the space of constant threat.

Thunder now. The afternoon showers fall

with sudden gusts of eviscerating wind.

The threads of web buffeted by the all-

out onslaught are pressed to break up in

the crush of the rushing pressure a thousand-fold…

and yet.  And yet by God, my God, they hold!

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Summons

When evening brings the first

flutter of warm summer breeze

rustling the tops of the trees,

fly, Dove, toward the faint

wisps of morning, an orange-rose

 you have not yet known.

The early wind can bear

your weight, can carry you, Love,

can carry you all the way home.

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Skull Arch after a Starry Night

Staring out these sockets

at the dark spring green deep in this leaf,

its moist ribs limning morning light,

I weep for what I must have missed

swimming as I was through life

while thinking I was dry,

oblivious to the wealth of wet,

the sheer depth of extravagance

beneath the surfeit sky.

I would cry now if these caves,

these empty spaces

which once held unseeing eyes,

could produce the tears they failed

to yield the long myopic years

I passed a field, spare and simple,

seemed so little then, but now a feast,

as much a masterpiece as Van Gogh

to some random scribble.

                 Skull by Vincent Van Gogh (1887-88)

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Skull Arch after a Starry Night continues my series of poems on human becoming using famous sandstone formations in Arches National Monument as metaphorical jumping-off points.  In this poem I am imagining the speaker looking wistfully back on his life after he has physically died, regretting how much he took life in all of its variegated abundance for granted.  Van Gogh, it turns out,  has three paintings that prominently feature the skull.  Starry Night is not one of them, but as it is one of his most famous paintings, I use it in the title as a shorthand pointer to  him.  I like this quote of his: “If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is a grass in the beginning.”  May we not miss the wheat of the world now while we have the chance to know it as such.

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Maranatha, Cries the Beloved

The weeping continent is held in the sky

                for all to see

as the moon, unhinged and unbalanced,

falls toward the ocean of unheeded cries,

                a chaotic sea

of garbage plastic and blood-red currents.

Where were the archers in the guardian turrets

                defending their see?

Now vindication for justice unclaimed

comes on the wind, a champion, urgent

                as emergency,

white horse riding and eyes alive with flame.

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I continue my exploration of themes of human becoming using the sandstone formations in Arches National Monument as ekphrastic poetry prompts.  I was struck as I looked at this image of Turret Arch to see the rough shape of the continent of Africa in the arch space.  That sparked memory of Alan Paton's 1948 novel Cry, the Beloved Country.  That sparked the theme of the dehumanizing reality of long-unaddressed injustice, and just how core is the cry for justice in the human heart.  And that sparked the Biblical image of Revelation 19:11-16, a promise of justice coming at the hands of One able  to execute it purely, the One who Himself was executed unjustly, the One who forgave His executioners, and the One who promised to make things right one day!  Maranatha is an Aramaic word that means either "O Lord, come!" or "Our Lord has come!"

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Two-Faced Wind in Double Arch

The wind in Double Arch proves

its agility, its ability to keep

its two-faced Aeolian engine

sending currents curling through

on the way to dust-devil mischief

while lulling the slender lip fern to sleep.

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Double Arch reminds me of Ecclesiastes 7:18: "It is good that you should take hold of the one without letting go of the other; for the one who fears God comes forth with both of them."

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Cathedral Christmas Concert

The melody of the trebles

twirled like a medieval

dove through the high space

of the ancient cathedral.

The crowd sat in rapt attention,

wrapped up in the other-worldly

spell of the boy sopranos,

magicians of the Christmas carol sing.

Their words were lost to rounded

vowel and elusive reverb of stone,

a trade-off no one lamented seeing

it was for the mystic feeling alone

we had come.  For that fix of peace.

For something old (and being old

an anchor).  But the articulated—

word by word by word a story told—

this was drowned in the sound,

these bounced off ears the way the soaring

notes ricocheted from concrete arch

to arch above the mottled marble floor.

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We enjoyed an exquisitely beautiful concert at Grace Cathedral yesterday, a special Christmas concert performed by the cathedral's Men and Boys Choir.  I was struck by two things: the absolute mystic beauty of the music, and my inability to aurally distinguish the words being sung (if not for reading along with the printed lyrics in the program bulletin).  I observed the warm and welcome receptivity to the music.  I wondered if such receptivity was also being extended to the substance of the words being sung, or if the hard-to-decipher nature of the sung texts was a metaphor for the fate of the Christmas narrative in today's public square which, while in its essence a revolutionary and mind-blowing assertion of the radical God-come-to-earth story, has been turned inside-out into a vague anesthetic cliche that produces general feelings of warm sentiment without any vital connection to the actual story.

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So the Old Song Goes

Like a winding staircase your stare knows

how to penetrate the depths of me.

I think I love you, so the old song goes.

My fierce unconscious hiding habit owes

its strength to my particular history,

a long winding staircase. Your stare knows

how to bypass all the well-armed rows

of guardians in my secret galaxy

I think.  I love you, so the old song goes,

because your raid has opened what was closed,

an unexpected doorway to break free

up a winding staircase—your stare.  No is

impossible as now between us flows

the delicate magic of transparency.

I think I love you so!  The old song goes

on and on, a fact itself that shows

what is true will last eternally

like a winding staircase.  Your stare knows,

I think, I love you.  So the old song goes.

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This poetic form is called a villanelle. It is marked by a strict pattern of the alternating repetition of the first and third lines of the opening stanza,  and it only allows a total of two end rhymes throughout the entire poem.  My goal in this poem was to try and achieve maximum variation with the repeating lines in language that sounded as natural as possible.  It was also a chance to give a shout out to David Cassidy (1950-2017) who passed away at the end of November.  He made famous the song I Think I Love You (written by Tony Romeo) back in the Partridge Family days of the 70's.

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A Thinned People

Such we are, a thinned people

stretched by demands

rival and incessant.

Sinister whispers of evil

are easiest to reprimand

even in acquiescence.

Self-promotion gleefully

disguised as virtue grandstands

its repeat of adolescence.

Suffering love with equal

tenacity calls for hands

to serve with time and presence.

Silky entertainment wheedles

the airwaves and band-

widths with perpetual effervescence.

See how Landscape Arch cradles

its own debris of sloughing sand-

stone—inevitable evanescence.

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Landscape Arch in National Arches Monument is reported to be the fifth largest natural stone arch in the world registering a length of 290 feet and 6 feet thick at its thinnest point.  Three times in the last thirty years large rock chunks have sloughed off the underside of the arch causing park officials to permanently close the official trail that used to pass underneath it.

Being stretched thin is a common metaphor in today's busy world.  The things we choose to cling to have power to shape us.  As well as does the very fact of choosing to cling to things simultaneously contradictory and pulling in opposite directions.

Painting the Golden Gate Bridge

To call any moment

the finishing touch

obscures the truth

by saying too much.

A day’s job done

can be said, and is true,

through the fog of constant

déjà vu.

Every brush stroke

is at once its own end

and at the same time

a beginning again.

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There are a couple of misconceptions about how often the Bridge is painted. Some say once every seven years, others say from end to end each year. The truth is that the Bridge is painted continuously. Painting the Bridge is an ongoing task and a primary maintenance job. The paint applied to the Bridge’s steel protects it from the high salt content in the air which can cause the steel to corrode or rust (www.goldengate.org).

I find this to be true about my life.  I often live with  the hope for arrival, always to find that my long-awaited destination is simply another launch pad in surroundings that are eerily familiar.

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Tower of Babel

From the top ledge he calls down

for another brick,

for another bucket of mud

but the rope remains limp.

Gone the art of exchange,

that raw material for love.

In its place the attempt

to convince with words

no longer making sense.

It is no light thing to breach

the cauldron from directly

beneath its innocuous  swing.

Blinded Samson prays

between the carved columns

of our competence

as the loud music masks

the shaking in the walls.

And Icarus on clever wings

whips his silent shadow

along the ribbed fin

of Moab’s sandstone Babel

rising  from the desert floor

like an old sword unsheathing

from its scabbard, agile

and poised  to swing wide

and slice open the sky,                                                                           

to spill its hot oil

on the scurrying scorpion,

on the unsuspecting serpent

caught asleep in its coil.

Tower of Babel, one of the several sandstone fins that make up the Courthouse Towers of Arches National Monument, affords this musing on the perennial temptation for humans to reach beyond and into the realm not given for humans to meddle.  Is it an affront to the modern human to suggest that there can even exist such a realm?  I think it is.  But branches in the very tops of trees are not known for holding the weight of the those who desire to swing there.  And we should be very careful indeed to puncture the cauldron hanging directly over our heads when we are not at all sure what is about to flood out! 

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Delicate Arch on the Brow of the Hill

Delicate Arch on the Brow of the Hill

curls upon itself to become

a gateway to the mystery of the world.

Pass through, all you fearful and timid.

Soon the dance begins out in the open unsafe plain.

Come, you arcane seekers of light.

The sunset shadows behind every rock are ready to tell their stories.

Pass through, weary refugees.

There is no line in which to wait, no papers, no scowls, no pleas.

Come, mechanics and makers of tools.

Breathe the delicate air between the ever before and after.

Pass through, scientists of every stripe.

Survey what can be explained and leave the rest to rest.

Come, you prophets of locust and leather.

Paint again the picture of what awaits on the other side.

Delicate Arch is perhaps the most iconic sandstone formation in Arches National Monument.  Its compelling beauty speaks for itself.  It strikes me as a portal opening up to realms and dimensions beyond our control, beyond our analysis, beyond our comprehension.  Part of human becoming is grappling with our finitude, and finding in the humility of our limitations an openness to what is bigger than us, beyond us.  For some that is a fearful notion.  For me I hear the invitation of a Father calling us "further up and further in" (as C. S. Lewis so memorably put it).

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Climbing Dark Angel

Dangling above the desert floor

like a spider on a web strand in a strong wind,

I wonder the wisdom in having chosen

as my anchor that which answers to nothing—

drawn to the solitary sentinel

with nothing in the night watch to watch over.

Does a falling body thud

if there’s no one in ear shot of the impact?

And what of the exalted shout

upon claiming the summit? Is that silent

too, high on the head of Dark Angel

at the point of the pillar aimed up at heaven

(criss-crossed with crevice and miniscule crack

by the whipping of the wind-driven rain lash

unimpeded by shield or screen)?

This is the towering inverted dungeon

impertinent, impenitent,

its old language languishing, left as a relic,

ever enamored with the whistle of wind

(which whets its blade beneath its sound)

singing the end of need, of relishing

thinking of never again having cause to bow down.

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Climbing Dark Angel continues my series of poems inspired by famous sandstone formations in Arches National Monument, a project which aims to reflect on the nature of human becoming by exploring rich metaphors that these formations (and their colorful names) offer.  This poem explores the dark side of rejecting community, thinking of the daring rock climber who prefers to scale the cliff wall alone.  In Biblical imagery the "dark angel" conjures up Satan, the beautiful angel who preferred autonomy to submission in God's glorious company (Better to reign in hell than to serve in heaven, says Satan in Milton's Paradise Lost).  The poem also alludes to the infamous Tower of Babel (Genesis 11) which also serves as a symbol of the allure and the curse of seeking independence, of relishing the thought of never having to bow to anyone or anything. The results of such independence are not all they are cracked up to be (pun intended!).

Parade of Elephants

The heat is juddering the panorama awake!

All the world is shimmer and shake

standing in front of the elephant parade

thundering down the desert scape

away from the secretive hunters of ivory,

away from the circus and drunken street clowns with their

whips and prods and chains.

Rise up, great ones, once again!

The Moab tribe is calling worldwide

for the elephants to assemble an unbroken line

heads shaking, trumpeting resistance,

circling the wounded, regathering the children,

trampling the profits the abusers have made

and setting in sandstone a justice parade.

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This poem, after a long hiatus, continues my project of writing poems inspired by famous sandstone formations in Arches National Monument, Moab, Utah.  The Parade of Elephants formation brought me back to last summer when my kids and I visited an elephant refuge preserve in northern Thailand and we encountered first-hand elephants rescued from abusive contexts.  

River that Runs Upward

May your love be a rebel

river that runs upward

away from the salty mouth

of the insatiable ocean,

up, up the incremental slope.

May your swift currents rope the hills;

may you upstream with the motion

of the head-strong salmon

ascending through the boulder fields

into the narrowing canyons,

scaling the tall falls like a parade

of water striders climbing the curtain.

Wind toward the glaciered peak,

carving channels through the snow

as you go higher until you lasso the summit!

Gathering speed, summon your last push

to rush the pinnacle, and at the tip

of it launch an inimitable

explosion of droplets and spray

in a never-before-seen array of

bright ribbons braiding the clouds

with pearled bands curling spaceward,

there beyond the world noise, His voice

come clearer, nearer, and your love a revel river

buoyant with joy, elegant with scars,

translucent in the light of the stars.

This poem is for my son Ren and my new daughter-in-law Caroline on the occasion of their wedding, June 3, 2017.  I had the incredible privilege of serving as their minister, and I read this poem to them immediately before they spoke their sacred vows to one another.  The poem is inspired by Romans 12:2: "Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."  It is a prayer that  they will follow the counter-cultural river of giving over grabbing, self-emptying over self-preference, laying down their lives for one another in the same way Jesus laid down His life for the world.

A Poem Sighs Upon Taking Up the Impossible

Every element

mattered and made

its way to the surface

carrying with it

a memory of itself

from another time

and far away,

all connecting  to that

amazing  crescendo

of being,

a mosaic moment

made for joy

awash in a convergence,

an alloy of singular melding,

inscape of landscape

and swelling soundscape--

a sense-scape

once played with no copy made,

never again to be, having been.

And having been, always to be.

I alone was there to see it.

To know it. To praise God for it.

To praise and leave it.

And now, as if betraying a secret,

I ask this pale poem to carry

within it that impossible

freshness (fading by the minute

like recirculating air).

I gather and order these words,

none of which were there.

Mountain Man

On the balcony of the Lorraine Motel

you fell backward, your cheek shattered,

and all that mattered in the world

mattered most in that mad moment

where love again met its inevitable end

standing at 6:01 PM behind the cold rails.

History fails to hold its heroes as high

as it hides the reasons the heroes first sang out.

A Remington rifle bullet rang out

across the dirty Memphis street

and completed your final speech

with its exclamation and point in red.

You had been, you said, to the mountaintop.

You had seen ahead to the Promised Land,

man like Moses, fate like his too,

to see from far away what all your life

had been the stage to view—

to be cut down now by a coward’s crouch,

your necktie flung into the air

where your words still hung, growing louder there,

“Mountaintop. Promised Land."

The promise from the mountain man

whose eyes had seen the glory of the coming

as only climbers of such heights can.

Here is final part of the speech Martin Luther King Jr. gave the night before he was assassinated:

Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. [applause] And I don't mind. Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land! [applause] And so I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. My eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord!

The picture above was taken the day before King was killed on the balcony of the Lorraine Motel near the very spot where he was shot.

The Second Jazz Man: A Tribute to Dave Brubeck

Your signature was being on time—

mind-blowing rhythmic arrival! Expenditure

of cool jazz temperature,

steady flame in sixty-year fame. You stayed true

to Iola who took your name to the grave

dying fifteen months after you.

You died a day before turning ninety-two.

Humble rancher with a new rhythm running

through nerve-damaged fingers prodding the strings’

vibrational ring, the black and white keys

pressed into long seamless lines of climb and fall,

give and take five responses to every call

of the seed, of the theme, of the truth,

the proof in the doing: the Wolfpack grooving

an uncharted pathway;

the math-play of the Quartet with Gene on the bass

in the race to make music all over the face of the madness

of Jim Crow’s rancorous bandstand.

You made a grand stand at the newsstand—

Time had placed you on the ’54 cover,

the second jazz man after Armstrong to make it.

Your chagrin was not fake, what you said to the Duke

when he knocked on your door,

“That should have been you.”

NOTES:

1.      “Cool jazz”: Brubeck is considered a pioneer in this genre of jazz

2.      “Iola”: Brubeck’s wife of seventy years!

3.      “Humble rancher”: Brubeck was born in Concord, CA, the son of a rancher with early intent to work with his father on the family ranch

4.      “Nerve-damaged”: Brubeck suffered a spinal cord injury diving into the surf in Hawaii in 1951 that caused nerve pain to his hands for years afterwards

5.      “Take Five”: one of Brubeck’s most famous songs, written and recorded with his Quartet in 1959 on the album Time Out (the first jazz album to sell more than a million copies). Melody written by saxophonist Paul Desmond

6.      “Wolfpack”: Brubeck started one of the armed forces first ever racially integrated bands while serving in  the military during the early forties

7.      “Math-play”: the Dave Brubeck Quartet was famous for composing songs with innovative time-signatures

8.      “Gene on the bass”: African American bassist Eugene Wright

9.      “Armstrong”: Louis Armstrong was on Time’s cover in 1949

10.      “Duke”: Ellington.  Brubeck thought the Time cover honor should have gone to Duke Ellington but that he was chosen in part because he was white.

First draft of a tribute poem to Dave Brubeck, in preparation for an upcoming art show called Panoply, featuring the art of Tom Matousek, the music of Tom Patitucci, and my poetry on Monday, March 13, 7:00PM, at the Calicraft Brewery, 2700 Mitchell Drive in Walnut Creek. Everyone welcome to this free event!

Depending on the Name

Some call them The Three Gossips.

Some The Three Kings.

How different, depending on the name,

follows the kind of whisperings

that piggyback onto blowing desert dust.

The Gossips say things

never meant for others’ ears, delicate

and delicious malingerings.

The Magi ask questions, or for directions,

and sometimes sing

when they are lost and looking up

at stars, bright and blinking.

The gossiped air churns sluggish and dragging.

Slowing , sinking,

 the dust-devil hardens into a

shower of pebbles flinging

themselves against the cliffs,

scattered like beads off a string

into crevice and rut, mute in the mud,

underneath the faintest hint of frolicking—

a merry melody, free in the breezes—

the laughter and pipe-smoke of kings.

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 This poem continues my series of poems inspired by various famous sandstone arches and towers found in Arches National Monument, Utah.  These poems are meant to use the famous natural structures as foils to reflect on the nature of human becoming.  The three-towered structure pictured above is sometimes referred to as The Three Gossips and is sometimes referred to as The Three Kings.  Deciding which name to use for the poem would send the poem in very different directions.  And this in itself struck me: how powerful the name we give ourselves to shape who we become.  Suddenly this idea took over the poem itself and shaped its becoming.  Everything depended on the name!